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I had been ill for many years (Bed-ridden with Lupus). At one time I could barely get out of bed, but Praise the Lord, God is faithful to His Word. One day as I lay in bed with all of my hope dried up and turned to ash, I was Praying to die, when the wind of the Holy Spirit ever so gently, pushed my bedroom door open. And beginning at my feet, I felt this warmth cover my entire body. I knew it was the sweet Presence of the Holy Spirit. The Lord then told me to sit-up! He also told me to get my Bible, which was on the night stand next to my bed. There was so…much pain in my limbs that I just knew I would not be able to, not only reach over to the table, nonetheless pick My Bible up. But since it was the voice of God who told me to do it, I was sure He would enable me to do so. BUT, when I went to stretch that arm out, the pain was excruciating. BUT I did it anyway. He then directed me to read a well known verse: Psalm 118:17 I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the LORD. Then He said, " read it out loud. I want these words to go into your ears. I want you to hear what you are reading because Faith comes by Hearing and Hearing the Word of God". The part of the verse that became Rhema to me was the part that said, "I would declare the works of the Lord." I thought I was too old to that or anything else for God nor anyone else. But, as always, He is proved Himself Faithful, because He then told me to GET-UP! And I DID. I am a Licensed Minister and my husband James and I have been doing the work of Evangelists; however, James has a control problem. God has laid several things on my heart to do for Him, but that seems to intimidate my husband. Since God has called us both into the ministry, I know my place in the home and in the ministry is to be submissive and supporting. It has now been six years since God raised me from that bed and I do not intend to go back into it with Lupus nor depression, which I also HAD struggled with in the past. I do not get to watch you broadcast on a regular basis and since it is a fairly new program, it is hard to remember it's time slot. But one morning as I was sitting at my make-up table hurriedly plastering on my make-up, I heard your voice and had to lean back and over to see who that was on the T.V. (did you notice what I said, I had to lean back and over. No one in my family would have believed that I would ever be able to do that again in my life. HEY! What a mighty God we serve!!!). and the title of the program "the women who win," just kept echoing in my mind throughout the day. I was really ministered to. But, alas, what good would that do because James gets intimidated, not only when I watch other ministries, it also upsets him if I show too much interest them or am Blessed by them. The Holy Spirit has shown me that he feels this way out of a mixture of jealousy, feelings of failure and fear of failure. I have told him on several occasions that God is not going to do the work for us (he believes the Lord wants us to start a church) that we have to step out in Faith. But he will not listen. There was a building a few available a few months ago, and we have enough money for the first month, but he thinks that we should have months and months of notes in the Ministry Account. And he could be right; we must first count the cost. But I believe that God does not give a Vision without Provision. Finally, I realized that I had to "obey God and not man." I Pray for my husband diligently and fervently. So I know that God is going to "enlighten the eyes of his understanding," therefore, he will be alright because God has heard my request. Also in those Prayers I ask God to show me how to do what He is directing me to do without-seemingly-offending or rebelling against my husband. It wasn't long after I began Praying that, that I had a dream about First Lady Bridgette. In the dream, I had gotten into fear of what James would say if I stepped-out and obeyed God. Then, out of nowhere, Lady Bridgette was in the dream and she said "Oh No! where is he. I am not afraid to tell him what God said. And I felt so relieved, in the dream, that she had come to help me. It was like God had sent me an Angel. The only problem is, I don't know what to do with that dream. I am not sure that she is to be involved in my problem at all. As I said in the beginning, I have tried to join "Women Who Win" @ the web site but have not heard a thing from anyone. I need some Prayer Warriors to help me. I know we are to take "a dream as a dream," and I do. It is just that God has always directed my by-way of Dreams. The Outreach I minister at now, it the result of God showing it to me in a dream; therefore, when my Pastor called and asked me to teach two Monday's out of the month, I accepted. I could tell you of many other things God has revealed to me in a dream; therefore, I am seeking Him for the meaning of the dream that Lady Bridgette played such an important role in. I understand that this may not be the kind of testimonies you get on a regular basis and I am taking a chance to send this to you. If James found out that I was seeking council outside of this house, he would not like that very much. I even tried to get him to attend some men's conferences, but he won't do it. He feels that he does not need a man to tell him anything that God can very easily tell him, Himself. Please Pray for Him and for Me. We aren't spring chickens anymore. We've been Saved for twenty-six eight years, but my illness has caused us to lose a lot of valuable time and I do not want to waist anymore
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